Thursday, January 14, 2010

How can you say love is the root of all happiness??

LOVE. I dont get it! What is love, but a simple trick from nature that makes you lust someone and convinces you to feel like you are not good alone and you need a lover to be happy?? Why do we let ourselfs get so close and build a so-called "relationship" knowing that at any one moment they could change their mind? Or you? Maybe its just me...but i am totally lost.
See there is this guy...
I met him at school.. i hate to say this but i honestly never thought it would amount to anything because everyone kept telling me he was a player and to stay away lol. I know that sounds sad but i didnt really care what they said i wanted to get to know him so i did.
And of course... I fell in LOVE... And now its impossible to stop!!! Its like a drug! He is mean to me and i still want him! I yell at him for no reason and i still love him! Why then am i yelling if im not planning on getting rid of him?? What the heck!!!
But he is the most important person to me. And i am always hurting him. Im so stupid. And cant say im sorry because sorry is just a word it means nothing but then i try to act sorry and i dont know how! I just want him to know i love him and would do anything possible to make him happy even if thats me leaving... Its strange to do something that kills you for someone you love..

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  2. You annoy me corey you never understand anything i try to do.

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  3. i know i do and i am sorry. i just wish there was a way to fix things but no there isnt. your amazing baby and you deserve someone to show you the world. you dont need someone like me i have to many things wrong with me and i dont see why you would even love someone like me. you need so much better. i just used and abused you i am sorry i love you leighann. hope your life turns out better than anything you would ever dream of.

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